Thanks U GUYS

Sorry that this post took so long. i only just open the cards today. Boy oh boy was i shocked and touched thanks U guys so very very muchie.


Bear bear card frm CG N237. When i opened the envelope i was like oh gosh the bear bear so kawaii (cute). and then i saw the words Embroidery cards and i was lyk ARGHH OMG WOW. so cool. the bear was stitch on the card.

When i opened the card I was very Touched thz u all who wrote in this card to give mi encouragement. thou got lack a few people like max n kevin and eugene. Oh so sad.... where were you guys??? shy
izit? hahah joking only. wonder if u guys would read my blog thou.


this is how the two cards i received looks like inside.

Whoever wrote keep up with your sunshine spirit haha okay i would keep it up de. come back and sun burnt everyone haha.
And I would jiayou and study very hard this sem de.


Card from jessie and Gek theng. Thz gals. I din imagine i would get a card. but i was wrong haha so really really thank you both. hmm gek theng dunno i got blog haha jessie help me thz her k.

I really like the card. and the small envelope inside oh and the phrase. You're my sunshine. My only sunshine haha i shy le la u say me like that akakaka.


OMG i was so so touched from this letter from jessie. *HUGS hugs* duoble hugs to jessie. You are also my BFF (best fren forever). Time really flies man, i miss being in Np with you and chasing away your Mon blues. Where we really had no care in the world and play and study like crazy everyday.

Glad you like my blog post haha. Dun feel bad about my encouraging you. because i had gone through what you had. I can relate and i want to encourage you too. Let's both aja aja jiayou wor. hehe. Hugs to you again.


When i go to heaven or reflect on mi life. i think thru all the mistakes, regrets, Disapointments I had. Thru all the ups and downs i had faced I cannot deny i made some great friends whom i do not want to lost ever in this lifetime. kaka. Now back in Aussie i feel lonely because you all are not with me. sob sob but don't worry guys I would be strong and not be so negative but be positive by looking into the future and enjoy myself to the best I can.

Thank you so much to all who came to send me off on 27 july. realli thank u so muchie. And to those you could not come I really understand de i really thank you too for wanting to come send me off. I really appreciate all your efforts and encouragement people.

Man i still owe Shuning a bdae card. Sian. Shuning if you come my bdae party i would pass it to you but if you dun come den no card ok??? fair enuf??? haha i know it's not fair k. NVM.

Jocc n kevin Jiayou k for FYP. Sonia get well soon n take care your body. JT n gang study hard k. Irene wrk hard k. Shifu have fun at NTU u can do it de. Jessie jiayou. Gektheng n Sihui wrk hard n jiayou at work. Shuning and I we both muz jaiyou last semester le wor haha.

Bike trip

haha this is me wearing mi bike helmet and the jacket u guys gave mi. I am gonna go to the supermarket to buy some stuff and food le. SUPER DUPER EXCITED abt it man u can see e joy on mi face.

I gonna ride mi fren's bike there even brought mi backpack to put the food in later so i can freely cycle back.

okay off i go le



All was well when i start off mi journey afew bumps n brakes along the way but freaking enjoyable.
Reached the place really fast. got my stuff on time but i brought too much haiz agn. no space but in mi bag so i sling on mi shoulder n rode back.

But going uphill i fell a few times n the stupid chain fell off and got stuck between the gear and the bike frame. haiz tok about clumsy and bad luck. it was really WTH. so i push the bike with mi very heavy bagpack n shopping bag 2/3 of the way home.

This was how imlook like when i reach home. i was drenched in my sweat and it is winter time here somemore. haha it is so funny to me now that i think back.

But at least i MADE IT back and joe n brian say the bike can be fixed so i am going try if cannt den push to sch ask joe fix wahaha.

So you all might ask. i went thru all the trouble for?? actually i want to ride bike to sch coz school is really far, thus this is a trial run but since it failed really bad i think the plan needs to be put aside for NOW ONLI.

these things are wat i brought back haha nt much but they are damn heavy k. back ache now la. muscle cramp n ankle damn pain frm e fall too.
Lesson learnt, try to ride a few times before attempting to ride with a heavy load. I m so sorry everi1, especialli Ian n vicki paiseh paiseh n Joe too coz now i gonna try to fix it and if it fails push the bike 25 mins to sch and ask joe to hlp mi fix it.

My new hse

Some pics of mi new room n hse tat i have to stay for e duration of this whole semester. not bad actually, it's quiet and clean and big and airy. the rent is cheap and the hsemates dun borther each other (good n bad). the landlady is realli nice almost drive mi around and brought a new fridge 4 mi becoz the old new is bit broken (i din see which parts is broken thou. ???) but i think i miss mi old place, coz thou it's expensive i live wit racheal mi fren n it's convinent and super near sch. this new place quote from my fren would surely make me lose weight becoz i have to walk very far to school and walk uphill and downhill. haha. yesh gonna be skinnier by end of semester le, happi hehe... i think it all looks quite neat becoz sch just start but gonna get messy really soon haha.

been a long time....

aiyooyo been a long time since i last updated sia. paiseh paiseh sorry sorry to everi1 hu reads mi blog aniway haha. i be starting mi update now. 1st with a post abt mi new hse. haha

What I learnt abt Faith

I keep delaying writing this post BECOZ OMG i am lyk so nervous rite now. I know not mani people read mi blog but i am still veri nervous writing this new post. Becoz I can feel that writing this post would be a new breakthrough in mi blogging life. Thus i am scared lyk hell, also that this post was inspired by 2dae's service I want to do it justice and i also wanna share 2dae service with Sonia through this blog post. thus i feel so stress now. But like what Shuning saw This is mi blog and it's abt mi so i shd relax and let it flow.Ppl this wld be a long post let mi warn you 1st.

Since I am talking about Faith let's start with what is faith? Many ppl have different Definations
Wiki says - Faith is the confident belief or trust in the truth of or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.
Church says - Faith is the belief in things unseen and we walk by faith and not by sight becoz things that can be seen are limited but things ( like Love) that cannot be seen exist forever.
But simply explain it is the things that ppl want/choose to believe in.
To me before i heard Dr A R Bernard preach 2dae i had believe that Faith was the belief in things unseen, Through our experience with that smething or someone it affects the amount of faith we have in them. And once we have faith we would believe in it even thou it cannot be seen with our eyes touched with our hands or even sensed by any of our 5 senses.
Dr Bernard says that Faith Comes reasoned trust from 3 things
1) Intellectually
2) Emotionally
3) Volitionally ( our choice or decision.)
When i heard this it was like a bulb was turned on in my head. He says that when we hear or process infomation, firstly it would engage our mind we would ponder about it, next it would stir our emotions and thus would affect our decision or choice. which is really true, this 3 criteria affects the amount of faith we have in everything that only in our religion but the faith we have in people and things too. I would lyk to Share abt Faith in mi life after hearing his msg.

Firstly, I gonna share how i developed faith in God and Myself. ( yes i am gonna share about God agn sorri ppl coz God is a big part in my life but I am taking SN suggestion in mind). I started to have Faith in Myself i guess when God Said he Loved Me. Many people might think Huh waaa u can hear God talk to U? haha as strange as it seems ya i can hear him, i hear him When i pray when i find him and in times when i need him. I rmb clearly i was in church after attending Mike Corner service, I juz join CHC then, i didn't believe that God could love me. Becoz i was not proud of mi past and all the wrongs that i did in mi past and God knows i really got ALOT. But after that service which was really special i went to the back where I sat, tears in mi eyes after crying for so much from that service, i sat there waiting for mi cg members. It was then that i heard 3 words I LOVE U. i thought oh man e music muz be so loud I am hearing things now maybe ears spoil liao haha n i brush it away. Then i heard it agn this time a Commanding Voice Roared I LOVE U. it was so loud that i turned around and no 1 seems to notice it. and i knew at that moment God said to me I LOVE U becoz i felt it all the way in my heart and i weep. From then i didn't Doubt God anymore, that He loved me for who i was and not who he wanted me to be or who i can be but who i am now. Becoz of this i started to Love miself more i started to have faith in HIm and thus in return believe in miself too. this incident had always reminded me when i attend church and why i could not bear to leave God becoz he (other den mi dad love mi for who i am). And from that day i tried to change miself to be more like Jesus becoz i wanted to be worthy of his love and that he could feel proud of mi, and to prove to mi dad as an good example. i do not wanna be a bad reflector of God and that pastor once said " if a christian is the same as he is when he was a non-believer (meaning never try to chnage for the better) than he might as well not becoem a christian coz there is no point in it right?"

Sonia i have Faith in you, why u may ask? becoz of alot of things I would answer u, There's one incident thou that i would never forget. Rmb in feb 2009 you came to send mi off at the airport, u were late but that's not the point, the point is you rush all e way down even thou u were veri buzi that day and ran to find mi haha, i din tell u this (or maybe i did) but it TOUCHED mi heart very much and thus it developed to mi faith in U. So Gal even wen u r in doubt from Xing guang Pk i supported u becoz i had faith in U, from all the singing we heard from U we REALLY HONESTly BELIEVE u can do it de.

Jessie i know u feel lyk U are living in the shadows of all ur classmates in NTU, and have doubts abt ur future. Sometimes things work out, soemtimes it don't, sometimes, things get too hard, but know this, we all will support u from behind. We have to learn to feel contend, feel contend that we gave our best thou often it is not enuf. why and how to be contend you may ask. And i wld say look at the mani ppl hu are having it worse den U and dun think there isn't any becoz u cannt see it. Count your belssing and know that when u did the best U could leave the rest to God/fate/ or whatever. and i wanna say is i Trust U and have faith in U de, we all do. so if u fall, we lift u up. Dun be so upset abt it le k.

Lastly i end off by saying that those 3 criteria is needed to build up faith but e devil also use those 3 criteria to install unbelief. So guard it well becoz some faith once it's lost can never be found agn.

CREDIT

haha in mi blog post i 4gt to credit Mi cousin for teaching mi how to erm upload vids on mi blog even thou i promise to do so. therefore, here u go Mabel one whole post juz for U. i dun meant\ this in a sacastic way k.
PS ppl if u cannt view the vids they r avaliabke on erm youtube can go dere see la haha

To dear MJ ...

MJ i always thought u were mad. haha seriousli becoz of all the acuasation that were against you. But i cannot deny the talent that God gave you, You sing with all your heart and soul and your dance moves gave us a glimpse of God's creativity poured out on you. No one is good or bad in this world i believe we are all grey but we all try our best to be as white as we can to be. I believe that MJ you are not as crazy, as bad as strange that the media protray you to be
Why do i sae this becoz of this video of what his daughter said abt her dad at the furneral, it touched mi heart and i Knew at that moment as many faults as MJ had he tried to be there for his children, his family, his frens and his fans. He was so loved becoz he himself pour out lots of love.
this is the video


So MJ i hope you found peace and i would pray for your children and family and all those that you loved. I pray that i get to meet you in heaven and shake your hand and tell you how big a fan i am of you.
I end by saying Let's spread more love around becoz the world needs alot of it. Thank you MJ. to MJ children be strong have faith and love like your father had loved the world

A tribute to You MJ

When i heard MJ died I could not believe it. E world literally stood still in silence for the death of the King of pop. His death did not affect me much when i first heard it but watching his memorial service today and listening to the many songs that had accompany me in my youth i just could not do a tribute for this legend.
so on mi blog i will share some vids of his songs that i realli love .. RIP MJ

This is e first movie i love i din know he sang this song which moved mi in the movie so much i cried each time i watch it.



the 2nd song Michael Jackson I'll be there


3rd song Micheal Jackson CHILDHOOD
this song was one that touched mi heart the most becoz i kinda knew what he wanted to sae. we both had our own difficult childhood which no one could understand. I think this song is also one that many place deep in their hearts.


And lastly the song that's been playing on telly since his death to commemorate his life and which i think is the best song that fits in sending him off.
Micheal Jackson (Gone too soon)


MJ you were a legend. No one could surpass what u did in ur first 30 yrs of your life and thou no one could understand you in the last 20 yrs of your life. You were a legend not just becoz U could sing but i think it's becoz off stage n on stage u touched everi1's hearts through your actions and songs which you sang with your heart. I would miss you MJ alot as i cry n weep while writing this post i will smile through these tears becoz i know we wld meet in Heaven agn one day.
I salute you MJ you wld remain in mi heart

Help

People i wanna know how do ppl post vids on blogger teach mi plssss

a Little about mi (2) LOVE

Well i am not a sentimental person, people might find it weird why i sae this becoz they wld be lyk SHIHUI IS SO full of emotions. But realli i grew up veri undeveloped in expressing miself. Mi dad wrks all the time and dun hav much time for me. The oni times i experience Love was wen He punished mi wen i am small, becoz as a traditional chinese Dad he doesn't know how to show Love and thus I grew up not knowing what is love. I din have the warmth and love most families have or I presumed they had. Even now i still have difficulties expressing miself bt compared to the past I have made progress hehe. SO this post is about how i percieve Love.

Since i was small i always tried to seek the "love" or companionship i lack from mi family. Thus i did silly stuff lyk making mi dad angry, Lying, seeking bad company, joined a gang, rebelious, stealing, fighting and all sorts of stuff sometimes to get miself in trouble so that i could catch mi Dad's attention. But i learnt the hard way that i am only hurting e ppl loved mi. That when i hurt miself ppl around mi or who loved mi gets hurt too. Maybe becoz of this weird family situation i grew up in I always had a weird relationship i have with mi dad ( this is mi ans to sonia qns of why i feel uncomfortable at home thou i dunno she wld read it not).

Thus basically i grew up thinking I was not loved and no one could love mi. More things happen in mi life that during mi teens this idea was cemented in mi heart and mind and that whoever love mi even if he/she was family wants something from mi and not becoz he/she loves mi. That's why since mi sec sch daes i had built a wall to protect mi heart from everyone, sometimes even mi dad who might be the only one who loved mi. I juz din want to get hurt or be hurt anymore.

Howver mi life took 2 drastic change when i was 16 n 19, mi dad remarried and i found God. The thing is i always want to share about God but i din becoz i was afraid, I was afraid of geting hurt from condemnation, rejection and critism i would have to recieve if i shared about God. BUT then i decide to share his goodness and greatness, and be true to miself I wanna live a lifethhat allows mi to be true to miself. God has been good and great Firstly becoz he first loved mi and that he was always dere for me, even if sometimes some prayers were not realised I know that God is good and that He sees the future that i do not. He has a plan for everi1. God is never earli or late but he is always on time. After joining church i have grew, into a person i can be proud of be happi with and a person who i can grow to love. Of coz i am not perfect, no one is, BUT i wanna improve i wanna be a better person i wanna do GOOD. I do not wanna live mi life by how the wrold defines it BUT I wanna live it TRUE to miself, with God everidae.

Throu these few years in church n life I have found Love in God and thus am slowly able to show/express love. No matter if it's to mi Famili or to mi frens. But I still have a long long way to go man haha. Mi life had truely began, these few yrs, I going keep striving so ppl ( frens n families) bear with mi as i try to be a better person who has love and bring love to people. Recentli one of mi fren told mi one of mi greatest strength is forgiveness. WHich took mi by surprise, becoz i wasn't expecting it but Vicki i think i am forgiving becoz i love. Love always ppl to do extraordinary thing it allows ppl to be able to do impossible thing if the world had more LOVE how wonderful it would be.

So instead of peace out i wld sae Love lyk nv be4.

Little about me.(regrets)

When i was in Aussie I felt like i was having an Out of body experience. haha I dunno y but Since i came back I felt miself again. Coming back home to be wit mi famil(ies), frens and people i love makes me feel Lyk i found miself agn. This is gonna be a VERI LONG SERIES OF POST sorri to bore everi1. Why i wanted to write these series of post is becoz i feel that mi blog shd have more insights into miself and e msg pastor preach on Sundae abt "valleys"

I have 4 ( well 1 is nt human coz he is God) people i am thankful for to be in mi life. Mi dad, who brought mi up in a single parent family was not easy for him at all. Siang yee mi realli good fren frm sec sch hu saved mi frm Commiting suicide wen i was 17 and Audrey who brought mi to church. Lastly God who loves me for who I am. I have yet to thank any of these people properli yet but i pray to God that i can do all i can to thank them in this lifetime.

REGRETS i have COUNTLESS.They are lyk stains tat wld not come off mi heart no matter how mani times i ask for God to cleanse mi heart. However i do feel alot better now coz everitime i ask for god's forgiveness, he is dere to sew up e holes (regrets, mistakes, wrongdoing) of mi heart. God gives mi peace and comfort lyk nth i have experience be4, I am so thankful to God. BUT THERE ARE still stitches over these holes. And sometimes whenever any one of these hole is spilt open by situations it hurts so bad that sometimes no amount of crying can stop the pain that is piercing mi heart. Some holes hurt so bad that i would hold onto mi chest crying becoz the pain is so great i thhought i would die from it.

I learnt to forgive miself and the people who had caused these holes in mi heart becoz God had forgive mi sins. It is not easi, not at all i can sae and ppl who had experience similar siutations whould tell u e same. But i refuse to be restrained or burden by the holes of mi heart. Life is simply too short If we keep focusing on the negatives in life we would never see the positive things that could come about in life.